Preamble:
A peak inside my mind....

"I sit down gently on the armchair and I look out the window. In these difficult moments I think of you. I think about your touch that soothes me every time I feel lost and without purpose. I remember your childish smile when you try to bring back that light into my eyes. The sun rays now break through without fear of the darkness in this room. Their warmth slowly touches my cheek and I remember your kiss. Your kiss which anyone else would treat with indifference. However I... I live to feel it, to feel its passion and power. And I daydream like every other day, I'm sitting and waiting for you to call again. To tell me how your day has been and to remind me that we will see each other soon. Again, this word gives me an unbreakable hope. Soon.

Only my breathing can be heard in this sinister silence. Special memories start to play in the sun's light. I watch them with tears in my eyes as always. And still, I cannot figure out if they are tears of joy or pain. Longing pierces my chest while I watch these memories unfold in front of my eyes. Ahh, so many smiles and warm gestures. Anyone who would see them would feel the love too just by watching us. Suddenly, I pause as if on tv and the image in the light stops on your face. Your look, your eyes, tell everything: your life,mine ... ours.

After a few moments, I close my eyes and slowly fall in a profound sleep. This time my mind is empty of dreams and not long after I doze off, a surprisingly rhythmic noise wakes me up. The silence that dominated at the beginning is interrupted. I stretch out my hand on the little table next to the armchair and I take in my hand the reason for the noise. The mobile's vibrations do not compare to the heartbeat of my heart at the thought that I will hear your gentle voice again. Disappointed I notice that it is just a message. I read it with unsettled and impacient eyes. I go through the lines quickly until I get to what I wanted to see: "I adore you".

I ask myself if he knows what effect these words have on me. I ask myself if he feels or if he knows my heart's ambition to remain with him. Ahh, our young love frolics through dreams, hopes and most importantly, through lifes' obstacles. And I say it frolics because it is innocent like a child, beautiful like the child's soul and victorious like its screams when the child wants the attention frequently received."

He's my 9th Cloud

(C) Copyright at Stefana Gherghel aka LibreAlma

What happens once we die? Well, this is one of the hardest questions anyone can ask. There are so many opinions and so many people saying this, others saying that, it just confuses your thinking. This is why I should start from the beginning so you understand why I believe what I believe.

I was born into a Christian family even though my parents are not that religious, but we're all Orthodox. At school in Religious Education, when I was a bit younger, all I learned about was God, and how he created Earth and then Adam and Eve...Etc. I didn't know about Muslims or other religions. So I didn't really have anything to choose from. When I came to UK I was really shocked to find out that many of people don't believe in God. I was asking questions that anyone else in my place would have asked 'who do you believe in? Don’t you feel empty?'

It is true that most people only believe in God because they need something to hold on to, some kind of "tape" that will keep them on the ground, sane and happy I guess. And what's wrong with that if it doesn't do you any harm? Let them be. I personally don't judge people because of what they believe in, we have free will so we can use it however we want. I don't think that what I believe in is right and that everyone else is wrong. It's only my opinion, however stupid or unethical it may be. I'm not going to try and make other people to believe in the same thing, I'm just saying what's on my mind. Others can listen or not. Everyone has or should have a choice in everything.

Then there's the Big Bang and all the scientists who say they can prove that God doesn't exist. I personally think that is like telling a child that candy doesn't exist anymore. Scientists also say that once you die your body rots in the ground and that's that. However what happens to our Soul, our mind? Because these cells that make our body and everything that makes our body work can't feel love or other emotions can they? What about our mind, our thoughts, where are they?

Because no one has answered these questions and I don't think anyone can, that's why I believe our Soul lives on after we die. Where will it go I'm not sure, no one is. Maybe a God does exist with his Heaven and Hell. And our Soul will go there depending on whatever we did while we lived. Or maybe we're just going to hover above our graves or something. This is where suffering comes in and moral evil and everything. There are so many aspects of religion and what's wrong and what's right, that we don't know what to believe anymore, we don't know if we should believe in it or not.

My theory is that God created the Big Bang, from where it all started. That's why we have free will, to do anything, He can't stop it because then he'll ruin his plan. What plan? I think He did all of this so that one day we can go to Heaven or Hell. But why would he want us to suffer? We haven't done anything to Him. It’s because God punishes us for the bad and wrong things we do to harm the people around us. It’s like when your parents punished you for doing something wrong. Why did they do it? Because you did something wrong and needed to be taught that that's not the right thing to do. I believe it's the same with God and the reason why suffering exists.

There are so many questions and not many answers. I guess it's easier not to believe in Him and all that's related to religions. Why spend your time thinking about all of this when you've got a life to live, things to do and people to socialize with? Take advantage of the fact that you're breathing, no matter how you came about or what's going to happen when you die. Just wait and see, maybe it won't be at all as anyone said. But you can decide that when it happens.
   

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P.S. or ..... we go to the North Pole and be Santa Claus' ghost slaves for ever and EVER! mwuahahahaha!